I will remind myself not to mistake the moment of heart racing as "love".
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This post shall be dedicated to my Gin Shifu.
:) .
Firstly, thank you Shifu, for being a good host to me.
Allowing me to firstly, hog your computer.
Then your bed.
Hahahaz it sounds wrong in the above ^ context.
But yupz, sorry to have make you slept somewhere else LOLZ.
Secondly, you asked me what kind of person you were?
Honestly, the answer I gave you were merely perhaps 1/5 or lesser of what I would like to say.
But ultimately, I only knew you for definitely, less than 2 weeks.
So, I cannot give you a complete answer for that.
But on top of everything, I genuinely believe that you are a good guy :) .
Lastly, thank you for trusting me enough to share your thoughts and feels.
I wanna tell you that, I understand your pain and sadness.
Although I cannot comprehend fully because I am not you, but you are not the only one who feels sad because of relationship failure.
:D , it's nothing to be ashamed of.
At least we know they're not the right ones for us.
I wish I could do something to make you happier, and less empty.
So from now on, let me be your friend, :D .
To support you at least emotionally, to the best I can when you are feeling low.
Kk?
:D .
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To Zeta Shifu:
Yo, you.
Stop being high and low all the time.
According to my friend, it's easy to get depression like that.
Cheer up k?
You have friends by your side.
Let's JY for our VTA mission!
:D .
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And well.
To Babe, I am sorry for not replying to your SMS today.
Although you never told me anything, I know there must be a reason to why you feel extremely fed up.
I totally appreciate the fact that you didn't 100% complete your manicure before you came out because you're worried about me, the place that I am going.
Sorry for the trouble I caused you but really, thank you for caring about me enough to follow me.
I feel guilty about bringing you around away from your home.
Sudden and random ideas to ton at people's house.
But where your presence comes into concern, I am thankful for it.
After weeks of staying with you.
I thought by now you should know that I am an extremely heavy sleeper who cannot even wake up when my alarm sounds, even when the phone is just beside me.
Not to mention, when you texted me yesterday, the phone wasn't even on the bed.
It was left charging on the computer table.
I only woke up a few minutes before you called.
Before you went home that morning, do you remember we agreed that I will bring you dinner when I leave Gin Shifu's house?
I thought you would sleep until late in the evening as well.
And therefore, I slept without setting alarm or ringtone.
I didn't expect that your mum will want to ask you out for dinner.
For that, I apologize.
Having to make you worry.
No matter how angry you are, how pissed you are with me.
Please always remember.
That I, always appreciate you for who you are.
And all the things you've done for me.
No matter how big how small.
And please always know that.
No matter how many times we fight, for what kind of things.
I had long regard you as my sister.
Someone who I really cherish a lot a lot.
So please talk to me soon.
):< .
I miss you.
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PS: Actually, I am also not sure if they will read it :\ .