I feel driven to the edge of the cliff now.
Yet it seems like I deserve it because I was the one who allowed it to happen this way.
"忍住不哭 我要忍住不哭
望向天空不让眼泪流出
抬头看进云深处 等待那日出"
This song suddenly keep playing in my head.
I think I am back to square one.
Perhaps now with an addition worry.
Things seem to start going wrong.
I don't wanna end up hurting him.
I think I might choose the cowardy way of hiding from both of them.
Feeling fade, don't they.
Then may this crush go away.
May the feelings for both of them just.
Go.
Away.
I shall remain my stand that being friends is the best.
*
Ever since feelings developed to more than friends, sadness seem to kick in again.
I hate this feeling.
I don't wanna go back into the stage of depression.