I didn't sort out the previous post.
Will prolly do so at school later.
I am supposed to be sleeping now.
The momentum has came and well, I am supposed to be swept along and into dream land but currently, I just can't ease my mind and go with the flow.
I don't mean to purposely friendzone anyone.
Honestly, when I was young, I used to think that two guys fighting over me was something that, I don't know, makes me feel good, because in dramas, the girl that two guys fight over is super pretty.
But as I grow up, I learnt that that is not the case, and I don't ever gonna expect my relationship to be like the one in dramas.
However, there is one drama that I would really love my relationship to be like.
Honestly, I think it's possible.
Setting the looks aside.
That kind of guy is.
Wow, still hard to find, but not impossible.
But anyway, as I was saying I don't mean to purposely friendzone anyone.
I cherish each and every single friendship, with a girl or with a guy, and I wish that when Cupid shoots his arrows, he hit both instead of one.
I don't understand why people like the ones who ignore than but ignore the ones who adore them.
But apparently, I seem to be stuck in this situation.
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I am a little irritated how I can seem to be important to someone for one moment, then not the next.
Honestly, I had enough being remembered randomly then thrown into the well of world's end the next.
Sometimes, it's the simplest thing thing that people tend to neglect that cause the other party to be hurt.
I tend to be hurt easily because I pay attention most of the time to the really minute details.
Although the good thing is, a little assurance can bring me back to normal again but, that doesn't mean it wouldn't affect me in one way or another.
I know this blog post seem abot abstract but quite a number of things are running through my mind now.
And at this moment, I wish I can just fall asleep and tune out of everything in this world, including what my heart feels.
But I can't.
So I am stuck in this melodrama.
-_- , god, why am I doing this to myself.