I don't know if I am PMS-iing or what.
But my mood today has been fleeting.
Looking on the bright side, at least I am feeling human.
Experience both happiness and sadness.
Looking on the down side.
It seems as though I am gonna go.
Back to the days when I will feel angry all the time.
I sincerely hope it's just PMS-iing.
And that this seemingly undying anger will go away soon.
He told me he'd never neglect me for games.
Yet at this moment, it seem as though a hacker in Audii is more important than me.
He said he'd LP with me tonight if he feel better.
He seem to be all healthy and fine talking about hacker.
Of course I am happy the fact that my boyfriend is in the pink of health.
But how can I not feel that my existence is less significant than that.
Of a random hacker who tries to stupidly, taken on Rem Shifu's name?
I should have known all along.
The person I am dating.
What he is involved.
The category of guy he is under - Gamer.
And probably what to expect.
I know there's a problem starting up.
And he is doing his job.
But I just cannot help feeling upset that he seem to have totally neglected me.
I know I know I should be a supportive girlfriend.
And I am absolutely disappointed with myself for not being one.
Despite believing I am ready to face what I thought I was mentally prepared for.
Sorry, Azriel.
): , I am working on it.
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My eyes are so tired, they're closing.
Remix ahgong and Sweetheart are rushing me to sleep.
I am gonna go discuss the important dates for assignment submission then perhaps sleep.
But before that, I shall take a bath.
Hopefully my mood turns for the better and that I won't feel that sleepy.
I don't know how who the hell I should talk to now.
For feeling so stress and all for both assignments and work.
My future, my future, my future.
God, can you see I am breaking apart?
I already cried once today.
It's enough le.
PS: I guess LP will have to postpone le :) ..