⇐ Painful night. ⇒

This post is for yesterday :) .

But before that, Happy Chinese New Year :D .

May everyone find joy in spending time with your loved ones and do take care of your health while you feast on those tempting and delicious snacks and food ^_^ .
Take care and have a fantastic CNY ♥ !

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I fell asleep with tears.
With regrets and disappointment.

Regretting the words that I typed without consideration again.
Disappointment because I let Gin see the ugly side of me.

Tears because the way he lashed out at me was painful.
Not exactly harsh but I know the truth to it.

That's just the way I am.
Even though I know, it's one of my greatest flaw.

My eyes opened when the alarm clock rang.
My head feels cloggy.
6AM, left with at most 30 minutes to snooze.
Before I make my way to Bishan with my younger brother.
To pay respect to our late father.
Who left us for 8 years now.
9, after November this year.
Time flies.

My mum woke me up this morning.
Somehow I remembered her giving me a kiss.
;shy .
And I returned her one.
I feel like a child even though I am supposed to be 19 this year.

I woke up and washed up.
Then went to wake my brother up before gathering my stuffs.
And preparing to go out.

I thought I would fall asleep on the bus.
But somehow, I didn't.
My eyes were closed but my mind was too awake.

Gin didn't text me before he fell asleep.
>< , I found out later, why of course.

I thought YK and I were gonna be early this time.
To meet our Aunt at the incense shop.
We reached the destination 10 minutes before the fixed time, at 8.20AM only to find out that she's already there.

So we went ahead with the process and yepz.
The three of us settled breakfast at the temple.
As usual, the vegetarian noodles tasted awesome :) .
Satisfying ^^ .

YK and I went to Bishan.
D: and seriously.
He grew taller.
): .

I noticed that this morning when we were at the bus stop while waiting for 59 to get to Bishan.
His voiced changed too.
I made this two Facebook status.

"My younger's brother voice is breaking.
And I haven't even got him to do a recording to say, "I love you, jiejie" so that I can play it again to hear his kiddy voice.
T^T nooooo.

Y he no lemme record?!"
- 6.58AM

"Dafug?
My younger brother's taller than me...
): me have to look up when I talk to him.
Walao !
A few weeks no see only..."
- 7.02AM

So, as I was saying.
We took bus to Bishan and while walking, he laughed at me for being short.
): .
This wasn't a moment that I was waiting for T^T .

Bad YK, spank his butt.

Anyway, I went to Gin's house.
And woke him up from his sleep when I finally reached his doorstep.

I didn't really know how to face him.
Somehow, because of what happened before I sleep, I didn't know how smile.
I wanted to take what I needed to take from his house and leave.
But I was tired and decided to take a nap there.
I ended up falling asleep up till 3PM plus and left at 6PM plus -_- .

We were fine after.
Gin kept trying to talk to me.

I really feel so guilty.
It wasn't even his fault for the lashing out before I slept.
It was my fault for being so pessimistic.

Of course, I still feel upset the fact that he couldn't even spend a minute to call me.
But I guess he's right.
If we were to look at the bigger picture, I should have been more understanding.

>< so.
We're fine now :D .
And of course.
I will learn to be more understanding if something similar happens next time...

After all, Gin did try to explain to me, be it in a harsh or not tone.
And he did apologized.

What matters is, I know he still loves me after all the shit I put him through.

So yesyes.

Had an awesome reunion dinner with my family.
Just ME and MY FAMILY.
:D .

End of my post.
I will upload pictures later ^^ .

Gonna Audii awhile with Gin before the both of us get some sleep.