Valentine's didn't went that well.
And now, our anniversary doesn't start out so well, either.
It pisses me off honestly.
And it's more than just pissing me off.
This post is I guess, so far, the most damaging blow ever dealt to our relationship.
Firstly, I didn't say Azriel cannot play Dota.
I know he has already gave up alot of gaming timing for me.
It's not as though I have never noticed that.
You all can only see how he cut his gaming time.
Yet as compared to other girls out there who totally force their boyfriends to quit Dota.
I think I am already quite understanding to some point.
Secondly, I have him almost everyday at his house?
Please get it clear, how many times I said I wanna go home.
And how many times Mr Azriel here said he don't want me to leave his side.
I am not complaining that my boyfriend here is annoying for asking me stay by his side.
In fact, I am happy.
But for some reason, asking me to tie him to a tree suggests that I am a totally overly attached girlfriend.
And for that, I don't even feel like going to a near distance to my boyfriend now.
Thirdly, thank you for reminding me, that I am only Azriel's GIRLFRIEND and not his WIFE.
Despite the fact that he constantly tells me and assure me that he feels as though I am his wife.
Because of what you have said, I totally lost faith in that sentence and yes.
I feel like I have just demoted to his girlfriend, and just his girl companion, so for that, thank you.
Fourthly, I appreciate it for reminding me that I have not been a real girlfriend for the course of over 4 months, for accepting Azriel for who he is, who his past, for his love for Dota.
And yes, thank you for reminding me the fact that only Azriel have been putting up with my craps.
Fifth, I did not bloody stomped out of the room JUST because AZRIEL WANNA PLAY DOTA.
I walked out unhappily because of the fact that I think he doesn't spare a thought for me.
I have settled this misunderstanding with him until APPARENTLY.
You decided to put up this post and screw everything up again, making me feel like I am a super unreasonable girlfriend who have been putting my boyfriend in a cage and locked him up then throw away the key.
Sixth, if Mr Azriel wanna change for the bad, that is his problem.
We have promised each other to work for the better.
And I was quite motivated to do so UNTIL this post came up.
Which totally makes me feel like.
Why do I have to be the only responsible one for his change.
I am not a tool for anyone to push all the blame on.
For the choices that Azriel decides to make in his life.
Lastly, I shall repeat this fucking point again.
I NEVER WANTED AZRIEL TAY XUN KAI.
TO GIVE UP PLAYING DOTA FOR ME.
We both talked about this before.
AND WE KNOW HOW IMPORTANT DOTA IS TO HIM JUST LIKE HOW AUDII IS TO ME.
SO SHUT THE F UP ABOUT ME NOT LETTING HIM PLAY DOTA.
...
Seriously.
I am trying to make friends and get to know everyone in Legends.
And that's what I fucking got.
You asked why I was so annoyed by the likes?
It's just like?
Dude, most of the time, when people like something.
It's because it's something they agree with or something they relate.
You said sometimes you also just like posts on Facebook.
But this is a serious post.
And I don't think ALL of the people who liked that post.
Are just liking it randomly.
Or just liking for the sake of liking it.
I believe they liked because they kind of agreed with what Troy said.
And seriously, that hurts me, pisses me, and totally turn me off.
Because those people don't even know the true story behind this whole thing.
And they wanna agree with something that is not even totally true.
Next.
You said I have a bad temper.
But that doesn't mean I cannot keep it under control.
And that doesn't mean I should use it on you.
You said Troy is those very easy to burst kind.
So why can't he hold it in as well?
And do it another way so that it'd reflect ME in a not so ugly way.
Ya, you can think I am selfish.
Only think about myself, how I would look in people's eyes.
But those people who are viewing this posts.
Are your friends.
Are the members of Legends.
The FAM you value so much.
How do you want me to take it in like how you do it.
You should know how sensitive.
How emotional I can get.
And yet you choose to gimme that kind of lecture.
With what wrong mindset I have.
What wrong attitude I have that will cause me to never succeed in life.
Well, that was genuinely motivating.
And I thank you for that.
Today is our fourth month anniversary.
But it's prolly the worst anniversary I have ever had with you.
And that fucking sucks you know.
I feel that our relationship is so fucking stained now.
You claim that I don't understand you.
Never put myself in your shoes.
Yet.
Me?
Lolz, my efforts to be a good girlfriend for you.
To change for the better have just been denied by Troy, supported by so many people.
Just because of one incident or the many small ones that they have seen.
What about the better ones that we overcome together?
The problems we went through together and solved seem so negligible now.
And I don't even know how face you.
I don't even know how to smile.
Continue posting more depressing stuff on Facebook bahz.
I won't have to wait long before the bunch of Legends come after me.
Holding me responsible for the BAD CHANGE you went for.