On a good note, it shows how much he noticed me, the things I do, the things I say.
It has nothing to do with Gin now.
The fact that somehow, I feel damaged and that no one understands me.
No one understand how the past can affect me so much that I am afraid of the future.
And it's not like I wanna feel that way.
Given a choice, I also wish I can ignore, totally, what the past make me feel and move on properly.
But I cannot seem to.
It's not just broken relationships and all.
The recent problems in Legends, DanceCult, etcetcetc.
They all leave an impact on me.
And all these incidents never fail to point out, how damaged a person I am.
And the worst thing is, whatever I do, the fact that I am broken seems to stand out even more.
I am constantly being aware at how people look at me, how people treat me.
I am extremely sensitive to such things, and I hate it when people misunderstand me.
Especially my own friends.
I hate it when I contradict my own words.
And I know why my own actions don't match my words.
But yet I can't find a way to explain why the differences.
And one very jialat thing is that, I can never seem to fit in anywhere T___T .
That's one of the saddest thing ;sigh.
>< .
On a happier note.
I leveled Jazebelle to level 41 today :) .
Officially a Master!
Wahahahaz.
Not sure how far I can bring her to.
But hmmz.
Hope I can bring her further than 50 !
Where Embel is stuck at LOLZ.
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Random stuff from LINE Play I wanted to blog about but keep forgetting.
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| First gift I ever got from Gin. On LINE Play :P . Hehehehe. |
Because I know his favourite pet is a bunny!
And he decided to return gift me a pig because he thinks I am a pig ):< .
But ok <3 .
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| Second gift I got from him. |
He said I deserve another gift.
;shy.
I think the two gifts was sent on the day I went out with him to meet Rem, their web designer and Tobi.
And while the three of them were discussing, I think luhz, he sent me this.
;shy;shy;shy!
I'm waiting k!