I don't know is it because I can't forgive myself for hurting Lotti somehow.
Or is it that somehow, it really is different.
I feel kind of empty inside.
:\ unsure of what to do about it.
Not being confident of decisions I have to make sucks.
This feeling sucks.
And once again, it's like I just pushed my friends away.
Somehow, be it Cult, Vongola, or JJJ's chat, the three have been very quiet.
Not just those few chats, but even the supposingly, usually noisy WhatsApp groups.
I find it weird that people can all disappear together at the same period of time.
Without even communicating about it beforehand.
If only Singapore wass so united about being hardworking...
Or being nice.
Maybe the country will progress faster.
Or maybe they're all busy hanging out for Halloween?
I haven't been resting well during the weekends.
With both days burnt out because of Vizit Korea.
I guess, my Saturday morning is going to be sacrificed too.
Babe jio-ed me to club on Saturday night.
Hahaha free entry I think?
I wanna go :\ , although I know Gin will probably be very angry.
Then again, I want to try more things now, than to regret not trying when I am older and out of the appropriate age to try certain things.
One example:
The colouring thing with liquid thing that you see in shopping malls.
Hahaha those are for kids to play with.
Seeing their masterpiece being baked in the oven then taking it out.
~_~ who cares anyway, at the age of 17, or 18 whatever.
I still plopped myself onto those obviously-too-small-for-me seats and start working on my own masterpiece.
People are migrating from AuditionSEA to AuditionPVS.
Gin downloaded PVS yesterday.
And I think it probably will be done today.
I think I am going to love the server because there is no hacker.
I wish AuditionSEA is like that too.
I really hate it when people call each other hacker.
And being rude because of their own suspicion of each other.
Poor Muff kept kena called hacker and insulted.
~_~ hate those morons who were mean to her when she's a legit player.
Actually, I am considering making another level 21 account to hold DanceCult.
And removing everyone from it, freeing them, allowing them to hop FAM and stuff.
Instead of letting it stay like Loonies.
Same goes for the WhatsApp group, removing everyone, back up the chat, then dismissing it.
Then again, it's the hardwork of the previous members.
And JJJ.
So I might considering recruiting again.
Then again, how to recruit when there are so many other FAMs recruiting too.
Hahaha,
As for MStar.
I'm still trying to get the hang of it.
Boon said I should try playing with the other members and not just talking in the crew.
Hahaha cuz people block off their crew chats or something.
I don't know, I have this feeling that Sweetheart might still be unhappy with me so MStar makes me stressful now.
I just created Steam account yesterday.
Because I want to try out Dota 2.
Hahaha had a deal to VS this noob on Friday night.
): .
But I have yet to even learn the basic lolol.
Ggwp.
No idea where Lotti and Jess went to.
I wish we could hang out together soon.