@1.09PM:
I'm starting to get used to Runescape 3 I guess.
Have been hunting down chickens and cows and making funny statuses on Facebook about Runescape hahaha !
Playing Runescape now!
During lunch haha.
Earlier on, before I went for lunch, Rem came on Runescape ): that ass has bought himself Black Trimmed Gold Armour.
I don't even have that after playing Runescape for so many years !
Damn it.
@3.21PM:
I swear that is true.
Just the other day, I was on phone with Gifford while playing hunting down cows in Runescape, and in the blink of an eye, an hour passed.
It's like, I don't have to spend especially a lot of brain power to know what I am doing in the game.
Just kill the animals, bury their bones and ya LOL, hour by hour pass quickly.
Then again, because of that, I just wasted precious time hahaha.
Albeit, we all know that playing computer games is mostly time wasting.
@5.56PM:
I had this feeling a lot when I was with him.
And now it's back.
But for a different cause.
I've tried to be strong.
To tell myself that I can even if I am alone.
But in the end, I still find it hard to.
I'm afraid of friends leaving me.
I'm scared of being left behind by people.
I'm terrified of being ostracized.
This is who I am, a girl with many insecurities that she tries to hide.
@10.54PM:
If my sigh can be so smokey, as shown in this sticker, I think the whole world will be in thick fog by now.
Talked to Gin about my insecurities.
Feel a littttttttle better.
I envy the friendship between him and Rem.
It's like both of them are not always talking but they know they can depend on each other and they will ultimately still be best friends even if they do make other friends.
I asked him what's his secret to that and he said:
Trust.
As humans, we are naturally selfish and think of ourselves most of the time.
What we deserve, what we want, why we should have time and wishing and wishing others will act accordingly to what we ask for.
While doing so, we have forgot that when we take, we have to give, and that's what's happening to me.
All along, I have been asking this and that from my friends, for Babe to listen to me, for Babe to understand me.
But when she's upset and needs me, I find myself hardly there for her.
For Boon, well shit this asshole.
Hahaha, ever since he got a girlfriend he obviously talked to me lesser.
Still, he has and always will be a big brother to me, and I wish I know what I can do for him, as a Brother.
Because truth be told, he has indeed done a lot for me.
Although when I rant to him occasionally nowadays, he does give me replies that seem he's only entertaining me haha.
As for Sweetheart.
I wish I had been there to witness her start up Vongola, and accompanied her through building the foundation of the crew and learning the game together.
But I guess it's all to late now because she has her own Managers to help her, and she knows the game well.
Not to mention that she's quite good a MStar player.
It hurts for me to admit that I actually feel upset with myself for procrastinating and not convincing Gin to download MStar earlier.
She has even left DanceCult.
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