My Macbook is right beside my laptop.
Gin is eating his supper so I just thought, perhaps I shall take this chance to blog.
The clumsy, stupid me, forgot to take an iPhone cable with me.
So yupz, my phone is dead now LOLZ.
:x , and I cannot reply texts, WhatsApp and yea, I have to deal with the feeling of having a phone in coma.
Earlier on yesterday, I had a sad sad incident with Gin.
I wanted to play FAM battle with Cultizers, like, us against other FAMs.
Or just internal battle.
But stupid Gin asked for the computer saying he wanna check something.
Then he ended up Mapling.
K nvm, second time, I finally got back into Audii.
Knowing they waited for me for damn long.
Gin come and tell me say he wanna Maple.
D: .
So I passed the computer back to him.
Well, it's only right, I mean, the computer belong to him anyway.
And I have been hogging it since I woke up, so yupz.
Then he suddenly say he no wanna Maple, he wanna pei me.
I was like...
K...??
A little how say.
Mini conflict occurred there.
But neither of us threw temper.
I thought he'd walk out on me.
But he didn't.
He stayed by my side.
:) and I am glad he did.
For what he said, I guess, I understand more about what's inside his heart.
Even though most of the time he don't show it.
Hahahaz, Dear, if you are reading this now, I just wanna say.
What I wrote in the Love Party letter tonight is true.
And from the bottom of my heart, really.
To the readers...
Yupz!
Yeezi and GhosT just had our Edelweiss Love Party :D .
Not the max one of course LOLZ, we're not even half there.
Kekeke but we're nearer to our target !
Went to Babe's house to get my things today.
Hmmz, I heard certain stuff from her.
Mainly about Alee.
Well, I did happened to see his Facebook wall through AnnWai that day.
I deactivated AnnWai anyway, I guess, no point having so many inactive Facebook account.
Hahahaz, his wall was filled with some song lyrics, quotes but I guess from what I saw.
He's doing pretty fine :D .
I don't know what he's thinking though.
LOLZ, since then, and even now.
If I don't know the story between us, Alee and I, I prolly would think the girl's a bitch by leaving him.
Leaving him being so upset.
Hahahahaz.
I don't know what he told his friends, but anyway.
Hmmz, if that's the feeling he wanna give people, I supposed it's fine with me...
I am clear in my conscience that I have been trying to fix it back.
I wasn't the one who told Sweetheart that the relationship was "too broken to salvage".
I don't get why he told people that he never broke up with me officially.
I mean, we weren't talking already.
He wouldn't even stop a game of Blackshot to talk to me.
He never made an effort to call me, or text me.
Except for once, he went drinking, was in a good mood, and texted me nicely.
Else most of the time, we were like hi bye friend.
Gahhhz.
I don't wanna bring up too much of the past.
When we were together, and I logged in his Facebook, he said I was intruding his privacy.
I didn't give him space.
Now that "I left him", he said I didn't log in his Facebook anymore.
To check what he posts for me.
LOLZ.
It's kind of...
I don't know, weird.
He contradicts himself sometimes...
So I still don't know what he wants anyway.
I would never have know this.
But I forced Babe to tell me D< !
And now that she did, I guess, I know what to do.
I logged in his Facebook anyway.
Nice one, password no change.
Hahahaz.
And I saw the songs that he set to private.
And the lyrics he picked up.
Honestly, I feel quite.
Touched.
But at the same time.
I don't know what to feel.
I mean, I was there, just right there crying.
And he slept.
What is the point of picking out those lyrics, and telling people we never officially broke up...
Lolz.
He claimed I like to make my own decisions without him.
But, when I told him about what I want, was he listening?
Or avoiding?
He claimed that I keep thinking he wanna break up with me.
When he didn't.
But, when a girl cries and beg for you to talk to her.
And you didn't.
You expect her to know you don't wanna break up with her..?
He says he broke the ring because.
Hmmz, he don't see a point in that ring since I have a ring with so many other people.
He asked how I would feel if he had a ring with another girl.
Well honestly, I had that ring with Remix purely for the sake of ring.
And that was after he stopped talking to me.
If I stopped talking to him and shut him out of my mind.
I wouldn't mind if he create another sub and ring with another girl.
For friendship.
Lololz.
He insist that I care for the ring more than I care for him.
Oh, yea, I guess so.
When I cried river for him, and stayed away from Audii because it hurt too much.
Ask Sweetheart, who was the one who garden for AnnWai because I was in too much pain?
Yupz, so I care for the ring more than he, himself.
Like how he cared for me more than soccer , beer and friends, LOLZ.
He claimed I like to make my own decisions without him.
But, when I told him about what I want, was he listening?
Or avoiding?
He claimed that I keep thinking he wanna break up with me.
When he didn't.
But, when a girl cries and beg for you to talk to her.
And you didn't.
You expect her to know you don't wanna break up with her..?
He says he broke the ring because.
Hmmz, he don't see a point in that ring since I have a ring with so many other people.
He asked how I would feel if he had a ring with another girl.
Well honestly, I had that ring with Remix purely for the sake of ring.
And that was after he stopped talking to me.
If I stopped talking to him and shut him out of my mind.
I wouldn't mind if he create another sub and ring with another girl.
For friendship.
Lololz.
He insist that I care for the ring more than I care for him.
Oh, yea, I guess so.
When I cried river for him, and stayed away from Audii because it hurt too much.
Ask Sweetheart, who was the one who garden for AnnWai because I was in too much pain?
Yupz, so I care for the ring more than he, himself.
Like how he cared for me more than soccer , beer and friends, LOLZ.
Because according to what I hear from Babe too, I have to personally get the card from him if I want it back.
I am quite afraid that anger will boil in him again when he sees me.
I texted him earlier.
And his reply was, well.
Quite friendly.
:D .
Hopefully, he can talk to me nicely.
I don't know if he has anything to tell me or something.
Hmmmz, but I just thought perhaps we could have a final nicely done goodbye.
LOLZ, maybe we can still be friends :D .
Like how he and Shirley are now.
Then again, it might just be another naive thought of mine.
Lolz.
And Gin ahz Gin.
You.
You are really a really special boy.
:) , and hereby, I invite you to be on a mission with me.
To overcome the many challenges that will present themselves ahead of us.
And stop denying that you are the girl !!!
:D I am man-ly-er !