- Ryan Idol
Well, that's generally how I have been feeling.
Reality is just unfair.
It's so easy to do the wrong things than the right things.
And it's so damn hard to correct the bad habits ): .
People just love to condemn one another isn't it?
Once someone do something wrongly, or for a period of time.
He or she will be marked as "that kind of person" for almost forever.
Unless prolly he or she gets to save the world or something.
However, let's not forget that this is reality.
And the probability of anyone saving this world is just.
0.00000000000000000000000000000000000000000∞1.
Moreover, we, mere humans are without super powers.
So how the hell are we even supposed to save the world?
With a kitchen knife?
See, it's so easy to stray away.
I am supposed to be blogging and there I am.
Commenting on how impossible it is to save the world.
~_~ I was just pissed earlier on about the submission of the assignment.
There was clearly a misunderstanding.
Yet it seems as though all the fault is being pushed on to me.
For not printing it out.
Goddamn, it was only a small problem.
Yesterday, when we discussed, we said to be in school together to print.
In the end, we were all late.
I could have been early if not for the fact that the bus took 1 hour 15 minutes to travel from Sengkang to school, instead of the usual 30 minutes.
And then because it was raining, I almost slipped and fell.
But thank god I managed to remain balance..
And we did mention in the oovoo chat that nvm, if we don't get to print, we will print halfway during class.
I said I reached school early.
And if you have worked with me for so many projects and all.
You should know that I probably need many reminders.
If you're so worried about the submission.
Why didn't you give me a friendly reminder about printing the stuff?
Instead of flaring up and said don't hand up at all.
Seriously?
Is that your mindset now after all this time when I keep asking myself what will I do if I were you?
Lolz.
I feel better now anyway.
It's like the higher beings are putting me into trials.
And tests.
And seeing how I am able to get through them one by one.
I hate hate hate facing friendship problems.
Perhaps even more than romance problems.
But it seems that friendship problems never cease to find their ways to me.
As long as school is involved.
Maybe I am just still socially awkward.
Who actually understands me on this point?
But apparently, I am not gonna let them put me down so much.
Because I wanna hold on to the belief that life is so gonna get better.
As long as I keep working hard now, together with my family, friends, and Gin.
And that one day, I will be better than all those who looked down on me, ostracized me and condemned me.
I will prove to those who think I am useless wrong.
Gin is right, life is full with alternatives.
I must not be so stuck on this current one that I am.
:) but of course, it doesn't mean I can start slacking because there're many alternatives.
I am looking forward to internship actually.
Hahahaz because that's where working experience comes in.
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Sometimes, I miss doing homework.
I wish I had studied and worked harder during my 'O' Levels.
Like, go home, sit in the study room and do my homework.
I kind of regret it.
But what done has been done.
And of course, I am not gonna harp on it.
It's a pity though because I know I could have done better.
I am intelligent, I believe.
Even though reality tells me that I am slow, clumsy and -inserts other bad traits-.
Because apparently, things keep bumping into me.
And Gin won't stop calling me baka because he keep trolling me.
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But I know if I try a little harder, with a little more guidance, I can achieve more than I ever have.
I'll be fine, I'll get through this.
I got through my shit secondary school life and cut off contacts with those bitches.
I believe I can make it through this as well.
It just shows how true friendships are so rare and precious.
And as always, I am so glad I have my own bunch of best friends for life.