No matter then or now, I feel like I am forever being an energy leech.
I demand too much attention, too much care.
Yet is it wrong to be wanting to spend more time with people who I truly love.
Sometimes, we expect that much from people, because we know, we are willing to do the same for them, or even more.
But most of the time, we end up being disappointed because they don't know.
I know life isn't all smooth, and most of the things don't go according to the way we want, according to the script we plan in our head.
Albeit, one just can't help feeling upset when the person who love don't understand you.
Sorry for asking you to spend more time with me.
I know my place well now.
I hate seeing you angry.
And I hate being the one to make you angry.
Everything you do is stressing me out now I don't know what to do.
Even if you apologize.
Simple things you do like texting with me, calling me is definitely gonna stress me out.
"When he is texting me, calling me, or out with me, I am depriving him of things he like to do, and depriving him of time with his friends, I need to give him more space." is all that is in my head.
So I can't help feeling cold.
Being cold.
Because the truth is.
I am hurt, and it's cold.
Freezing inside me.