Sometimes, I really feel like I belong no where.

In reality, my love for the media industry doesn't seem so solid because I don't seem to be able to catch up with all the entertainment news.
Nor do I have much interest in local shows cuz I think they are all the time, using the same actors and actresses, and the content of the productions doesn't vary much in terms of content.

In games, I still feel like I don't belong in MStar but sadly, that's where all my friends are hanging out.
It feels almost like how I started playing Guitar.
I thought I couldn't, but I could.
It just takes so much training, so much practice.
But at the thought of how they are doing so much better than me.
And that I am doing so badly, I feel so puny.

Not to mention the fact that many many DanceCult members went to play.
I never seen Jevin talking so much before.
He was previously giving alot of excuses about joining in DanceCult's WhatsApp.
And also, Wendy, I didn't see her being so excited about the FAM tee before.

Suddenly, I feel like, I have been doing DanceCult wrong.
Managing it wrongly.
I feel so wrong.

It's like even my existence is just plainly wrong.
And I am not even doing any good for this world at all.

Are you thinking that I am taking it too seriously cuz they're just games?
So, it's not that simple.

From this, I can so obviously see that.
Something is very wrong with my personality.
With my thinking, and maybe the way I talk or act.
But that's just the way I am.

Maybe, I am wrong in being this way.

Maybe, I am worse than those who are desperate to go into relationship.
Maybe, I am worse than those who can't do themselves a favour by introducing themselves first.
Maybe, I am worse than those whom I think are bad people.

Maybe.
In the end.

I am actually the worst of them all.
The broken.
The one who needs to be mended badly.